Thursday, July 27, 2006
Hey dear,
i know that you're reading this and firstly i would like to tell you that no word/words can describe how much i love YOU Lorene and no word/words can descibe the tremendous amount of how i feel for you dear. I love you so so much and nothing can stop me from loving you.
Ok yeah people, its my burdae.... and i feel 18. I am legal now... hehehe.. well today kinda sucked actually... almost all my close friends forgot my birthday was today and yeah this may sound really sad but my parents almost forgot my birthday just like last year and they are rather "bo chap" about me turning 18. I swear that i will not treat any of my children like tt in future. It is rather hurting and i even have to fight with my mum in the morning just because I wanted the door to be close when i sleep. Cos every time the door opens, i will awake.. Im kinda dejected now that it is the end of my 18th birthday and my parents just dont give a dam... actually im so so sad and hurt inside i just wanna tell them off what sort of lousy parents they are... On top of that, i paid 7$50 c for a cab to school just to find out that there were no lessons... lucky i have my friends to cheer me up. Anand, my so called best friend did not call me out anywhere or bring me out anywhere. well i dunt no, maybe he thinks tt im out with Lorene... all i know is i feel so hurt now, basically because my parents are preparing to sleep... i would feel alot better and appreciat it if they could at least give me a hug or something like tt but no... i dunt belong in their good books anymore... i have to be strong and independent in order to get over this rubbish... its just m birthday TIm, no big deal... just my 18th birthday... hahahha, i sound so attention seeking. anyway, fuck mum and dad for hurting my feelings and fuck all those bastard friends for forgetting my birthday... I hope my angel Lorene goes to heaven... I bless her with all my birthday luck... i LOVE her so so much....I hate mum and i hate dad.. all i got in the end when i got home was their stinking moody faces and not even a gesture of actknowlegment... im feeling very hurt.... PLs LOrene dearest, pls pls never give up on me even when i ask for a breakup because you should know my temper always last long some reason or another.. I turn into some kinda beast and start hating everything... LOL... its funny but something not to be played with people... hahhhahhaha.
My dear Lorene, really touched my heart... She came to my doorstep at 830am and woohoo with my birthday noodles and a yummie-tummie choc cake... Not to forget my very precious giftshe got me.A warcraft battlechest.... WOoooooooooHOoooooooo, we spent the morning together and she was just simple wonderful. she was the best la...
My dad on the other hand, forgot my birthday and gave me and Lorene a grumpy stare as usual... He is always a jerk... i really fread to be like him when i grow up.. I think he has failed as a father.. sighs... my mum, well she passed... but the thing is, she doesn't love me... i am serious... i feel absolutely no love from either of them... I mean, i try to be nice to them and i try my best to compromise but have they even ever spared a thought of how i'd feel.. I dunno if what im saying is correct because im just devastated at what has happend today and the people who claim to be so close to me are so actually so far... i hold a grudge on each and every one of you...
TIMOTHY CHOW!! 9:55 PM
